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chapter 6

the forgotten tree
It was autumn and the leaves were starting to fall and soon winter will come. I was walking on the side walk and I feel like there is something on this path which I cannot remember. Riri call on me and said “hi”. He runs straight to me and drag me into a shrine which is near from the place where he saw me.
When we got there is seems that place is picturing something from my past. I look around and Riri call on me again and said “come with me”. I didn’t know that he was preparing a surprise for me.
We were having fun on Riri’s surprise and I didn’t know that Luka and Jane was hiding on a tree to spy on us. I feel something different on that place and I feel like someone was watching us. The one who was watching us was Jane and Luka. Luka got jealous on us so he sit beside me and open his mouth. He wants me to fed him but I blushed and Riri put a strawberry on his mouth.
Luka got mad and Jane teases me on Riri. I was so happy together with them. Jane give me a bracelet with my name and my friends names. It was personalize and that bracelet was expensive and I want to treasure it. Luka and Riri have something like that too which Jane gave it to them earlier.
It was already going to be dark and I saw a tree which is ver big. I go on the other side on the tree and sit. The view was so beautiful which makes me fall asleep. Riri found me on that tree and he carry me. Luka and Riri brought me on my home so that I will be safe. Luka have my other key because he was living on my house when her family was on vacation.
Riri put me on my room and he was wondering on my room. He check on my things on the box which I kept but I don’t remember. He saw some picture of me and a boy hollding hands. He got jealous and blush. Luka saw him holding that picture. Luka laid his chin on Riri’s shoulder and look at the the picture.
“ehh I am jealous I wish me and Yuki will have a picture like that” Luka said to Ryuji. Ryuji ask Luka if he likes Yuki. Luka sat on my bed beside me and hold my face and said “yes I love her so dearly”. Riri feel like he got a rival on getting Yuki’s heart. “well then Luka I will not lose on you I also like her so I will not let you hurt her” Riri said on Luka.
The day has past and I got school and it was so cold. I didn’t know that Luka and Riri slept on my house. I just caught them and Luka was cooking then Riri was cleaning the house. I was amaze on them and they look so funny doing house chores.
I took a bath and when I was done they were done doing the things the’ve been doing. Luka pull the chair and said “sit here Yuki” and he smiled. Luka give me food which taste so good. I know that Luka is good at cooking because he already cook for me.
We were eating so hapily and Riri ust realize that I wasn’t wearing the bracelet that Jane gave. I run into my room and look for it. I want to treasure it the most but I lost it. I look for it everywhere in the house but sadly I haven’t found it. Riri said that I should tell it to Jane that I lost it.
I went to school I was so sad. The day has end and when I come back home I look for it again and still I haven’t found it. I said to myself that I should forget it and not be sad. I went to sleep and I dreamed about a boy which is exaclty same face to the boy that was on my picture.
He said on my dream that “ I will never leave you and if I do I promise to come back no matter how long it will take I will come ack just for you”. On that dream I was crying and I don’t know why and we were on the tree which I fell asleep when I was having fun with my friends. I woke up in the moring and there were tears on my cheek. I wipe those tears and think about my dream.
The day was so cold and I was looking for jackets and then I found this jacket again which I don’t know where it came from. I wore it and it was warm. I love it’s color and I hug that jacket. And I just remember that someone give it to me and I can’t remember his face but I feel that the jacket and the picture have a connection.
I wanted to know more about my past but I promise to myself that I should not be thinking about my past. I should think about what will happen to me if I will know all of my past. I give a big breath and and stand. I ran away on my home and went into the shrine. I look for my bracelet in there and Luka and Riri saw me going to the shrine. They ran to follow me and they shouted “Yuki~~!”. I saw them and I smiled and shouted “lets look for my bracelet and face the future on our side.
I look for it even though it was so cold. I didn’t lose my hope on finding that bracelet because it is the sign of my friendship towards my friends and me. We got tired on looking for and then Jane came on us and said to me lets look for it. I didn’t know that Luka said to Jane that I lost the bracelet. Jane give us food for snack. We ate the food and we look for it again. It got already dark and I was so tired.
I went into the tree where I slept last time and saw the sunset. It was so beautiful and it makes me fall asleep again. There was a boy lend his jacket on me because he saw me freezing and hugging myself to warm. He left the bracelet that Jane gave to me and he kiss me and I only feel it but I didn’t saw him. I woke up and I just saw him walking away. I touch my lips and on my other hand my bracelet was there. I wonder who was that boy and I want to know him. Riri and Luka saw me and I hug them.
I cried and I said “the bracelet it’s back” they were so happy and feel like I am happy but at same time I was so sad because there is something which is missing missing which I cannot remember. And I feel that it all starts on the tree that I slept at. I know that this is is part of my life but I also forgot but there is a feeling inside me that my story starts with this forgotten tree and will also end in this tree. Jane feel so happy for me and I will never lost this bracelet.
The boy which lend me his jacket was sp familiar and when I look at his back it was someone that I know. I want to say thank you for giving me back my bracelt and letting me lend his jacket. I also want to ask him why he kiss me and I also want to know why does his back looks like the man that I saw from the picture. I said to them what happen just earlier. Luka and Riri got mad when they heard me saying that I was been kissed by an unknown boy. I laugh at them and I said to myslef this is just only the beginning of my life and I know someday even if I will not remember my past there are friends that will be by myside whenever I am on pain and sadness to love me. And that was only the beginning of my life but end of my sadness……



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Look forward on the second season…… thank you for reading until of the end of the chapter.

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Chapter 4

The cry

I woke up on a sunny breeze the window was open and I heard people were having fun on the beach. The sun was so bright and it makes me cover my cover my eyes. I wanted to say sorry to Riri what ever it may take. I went on the beach to see him but I didn’t saw him. On his room I ask Kuro-senpai if where he is but Kuro-senpai said “No I haven’t seen him this morning maybe he is with Luka and Jane. “But Jane said that she is going to shop on a mall” I said as I answer Kuro-senpai.

I didn’t hesitate to go on the mall that Jane mentioned earlier when I was just half awake. I ride on a bus and it took 20 minutes before I got on the mall. I look for her on the first floor but she’s not there. On the second floor there was a limited edition of manga that they sale so I didn’t look for Jane and just grab a full new set volume of my favorite anime which is “the boy that I love is a cat”.

I was so happy that I got those copies but then I remember about Jane and look for her on the third floor.  I got tired on looking for them so I decided to eat on a café shop inside on the mall. I sat down and order some ice cream, strawberry cake with chocolate frosting and a burger. I ate the strawberry cake with chocolate frosting and got an icing on the side of my lips. I wipe the icing and remember Ryou-kun, he usually wipes me when I got icing and he will smile at me and then I get blush.

I got sad when I remember him but when I got sad I heard the laugh of someone that is same as someone that I knew. The boy that who laughs goes out and all I can see is his back which is same of someone…..someone that I knew. I follow him outside on the shop but I saw Jane going inside on the shop that I came from. I can’t choose on whom I should follow I was hesitating that I want to follow both of them but if I need to choose only one just one.

I go back to the shop and close my eyes while I was thinking of him again. When I got inside on the shop Jane was with Riri and Luka. I feel so happy when I saw them but somehow I am regretting that I want to follow that man.

When we went home on the resort I feel so sad and I didn’t know that Riri called on me I ignore him without knowing. Riri wants to say something badly and I know that someday soon he will hurt me by his words. “Riri” Jane said as she holds Riri’s hand. Riri walk away and I know he hates me more than ever.

Jane wants me and Riri to get together again so what she did was she makes a pajama party on her our room. She invited Luka and Riri well except for Kuro-senpai he is sleeping for the moment. Jane talks and tries to make a joke to make us laugh. Luka cuddles me but I didn’t react on it. Jane ask at me why am I like this and I said “this is me I am normal nothing is wrong just nothing”. Riri got pissed off “You think nothing is wrong?!! What do you think about how you ignore me stupid?!! I always care for you and you just ignore me like I am a total stranger?!!! If only you know what I feel for you stupid and selfish girl!!!! Huh maybe there’s only one person in your brain maybe it is Ryou right? That stupid man who left you?? Riri said as he was so mad at me.

My world feels like it was my end. I was hurt about saying bad about Ryou and on me. I didn’t realize that my I was already crying. “I….I am sorry……I didn’t mean to hurt……..maybe I should go..” I said as I cry and went out while it was raining outside. It was their first time seeing me crying in front of them. “What am I thinking why did I do now I made her sad” Riri said as he sit on the bed.

I was running outside barefooted and my feet got hurt but I didn’t give attention it because all I feel was sadness and loneliness.  It was dark outside and I didn’t notice that there was a car in front of me. I got hit by that car and my head got blood and got faint.

The man that got hit me by his car bring me on the hospital and I was on critical condition. Riri and the others heard about the news so they run off to the hospital. Riri pucnh the man that hit me and shouted “what did you do to her now how am I going to say sorry? Huh?” as he cry. Everyone was waiting for the result of me if I am just ok. I was on the operating room and everyone on that room does their best to save me.

The doctor went out from the operating room and said that I am safe but the doctor said to them that my life is still hanging because I got a wound on my head. Everyone start to cry and the man who hit me was arrested.

Week has passed still I didn’t wake up. Jane looses her hope for me to wake up and run away to cry on the hallway.  My family was not there to watch over me. My family was too busy so they just send me a flower and Jane put it on my room. My family needs to work hard because my hospital bills are too high.

Every time Riri visit at me in the hospital he feels so bad and cries on my hand.  One day Riri was sitting and watching over me together with Jane and Luka my hand moves and I made a sound. Luka call the doctor and the doctor check me up.

The doctor was happy because I gain consciousness. “Where am I?” I ask on the person who’s beside me and that would be the doctor.  The doctor said that I am on the hospital. I ask the doctor again “why does I am here?” the doctor said “remember you were on a car accident and luckily you are alive”.

I didn’t remember anything happen on be before and the only thing that I can remember was my family my friends and classmates but I was missing something. Seems like a missing piece that I can’t remember and makes me feel so sad. When I look at Riri, Jane and Luka I ask them who were they. Luka cried and told everything that happened between me and him. He said that we were close friends and he said that I was the only person that he said all of his secrets.

“Sorry but I don’t really know you all” I said as my head aches. Jane hold my face by her hand and cried “don’t worry we will help you to remember everything my dear friend” Riri cried also and introduce himself once again “I am Takasu Riri I am here for you to make you happy”. And when he said that I remember something about between me and him and that was the time when I first met him. “You! You’re my friend who makes me blush” I said as I point him and I my head ache again.

Even though it was only those things that I remember, I still feel that there was someone I don’t know that is missing around. I know that missing piece that I don’t remember is someone that is very special for me. And I know someday I will remember that and there would be a perfect time for that and now is not the perfect time.

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Chapter 5

A picture with no memories

It was already been 4 months since I got an amnesia and Riri, Luka, and Jane was trying to help me on recovering on my amnesia. I remember some memories on them but even though I remember them there is a person that I can’t even remember.

I and my friends go out for a picnic and I was ready on that time. Jane and the others were waiting for me and I was looking for a jacket. I was looking for my favorite jacket but I can’t find it. I saw a jacket which is fit for me and also a jacket which I don’t know.

“Yuki!!! Get faster were waiting here like for 10 years!!!” Riri shouted as he called me. I ran out of the house with the big jacket, well I like it’s color blue, and close the door. I wore that jacket and Luka said“nice jacket where did you get that?”. I don’t know what to say because that jacket was just on my closet.

We were already on the place we went. We were playing hide and seek.  And then I fall on Luka and our faces were too close. That time makes me reminds about somebody but I can’t picture his face. And it makes me feel so sad because I can’t remember that person. “Yuki get up your face is too close and our body” Luka said as he was so red while he said it. I get up and said “sorry”. Jane was looking for us because were playing hide and seek. I was going to speak but Luka grab me and cover my mouth so that we can’t bee seen.

I got too nervous on Luka I want to move but he stop he “shhh….quite we will be seen if you don’t” he said as he whisper on my ears. I blush and my heart beat so fast and it reminds me that I got this feeling when I was with Riri on the past and that makes me remember about my past, a piece of my lost past.

Riri was found by Jane and now the only people who they need to find is me and Luka. The got tired on looking for us so they decided to eat. We were spying on them so that we will know where they will go. The clouds got dark and then it rained me and Yuki run into the other path while Riri and Jane were on the opposite of our path. Luka said that his home is near on the place where we have our picnic so we run towards to his house.

We got on Luka’s house but it seems it was close and there was a letter for him and it says “Luka this is your mama we decided to go a vacation for a week so we left you…well I guess your busy with your friends and I hope you will get a girlfriend for that and go to the backyard your things are there and you can stay on your friends I am sure that they will let you stay…Have a good wee my child and yeah there is money on this letter envelop be sure to spend it wisely”.

Luka ask me if he stay with me just for the day and go to Riri tomorrow to live there. Well I accept him to my house because it was raining so heavily and Riri’s house is too far away from my house and Luka’s. Luka look at the money on envelop and the money in there was just two 50 cent, three 1 dollar and five 1 cent. Luka’s world was broken when he saw that money and there were tears on his face.

I laugh at Luka because he looks so funny. He looked at me and I blush “why are you staring at me?” I said to him while I cover my mouth. “Never laugh like that in front of me before you were always smiling if you stop your self on laughing” Luka said as he was staring at me again. I walk away and said to him “let’s go”. We were wet that time and I got slid on the ground and he laugh at me.

I got mad at him and run to my house Luka said “wait” but I just run away and close the door. He was there and saying sorry but I still didn’t open the door.  It was already night and the rain was so heavy. I was worried on Luka so I went outside to see if he is still there. He was on the door he was freezing on the cold temperature of the bad weather.

I let him go inside to warm himself. I check his forehead and he got a fever. I change his clothes and yeah I got red and blush because I saw his body but not his special parts of course. “Thanks for letting me in here Yuki…” he said it as he smiles on and holds my hand. I feel so sorry for him it was my entire fault.

I was looking for a medicine for Luka on my locker. I immediately grab the box of medicines then there was a picture of me and a boy sitting together holding hands. My tears fall and I don’t know why but I feel a sudden pain when I saw that picture. I want to know why my tears fall and I also want to know who that boy was.

I went to Luka to ask something about the picture but it seems he was already asleep. I decided to sleep on the sofa next to the bed where Luka is so that I can take care of Luka. It was already morning and Luka saw me sleeping on the sofa holding a picture. He tried to get it off on my hand but I woke up. And then I saw him he was trying to get the picture.

“So you already remember that man” Luka said to me as he got sad. I ask him “ who is this man I want to know and why are you saying I remember this person I don’t know him” I said as I got sad and I feel something bad will happen if I will know what’s behind this person. Luka told me that he was my friend a few months ago who left me alone on loneliness.

 Even though Luka said it to me I still can’t remember that person on the picture. Luka said “why don’t we go to the doctor and ask why I only remember just few of my memories”. And then we go to the doctor. The doctor said to me that I can remember few of my memories but only to the things that I don’t think so much. And he told me that the thing that I think most of the time is what I can’t remember and it might be permanent that I won’t remember them.

We go home on my house and when I got there I just sit on the sofa and think so hard if there is a piece of memory that I can remember about that picture. I was so desperate so I make a mess on my room and look for other pictures of me and that person. I found so many pictures of me and that person but none of it that I can remember.

I cry so much and Luka hug me to comfort me. I want to know so many things about my past even just only a piece of it. It is enough for me to have memory on that picture of the man and me. I hug Luka as I cry and said “Luka I want to know what’s on my past… there are so many pictures here that I can’t remember when it was taken”.

It was already afternoon I fall asleep from sleeping. Luka calls on Riri and Jane to come here on my house. They wanted me to become happy even though I won’t remember some of my past. When I woke up they were there preparing food for a party for me. I cried at them to say thanks. Jane said that I don’t usually cry in front of people. Luka said that this is the start of the new life of Yuki as girl who now opening he heart to everyone to love the people who cares for her. We have a group hug as I cry and I said thanks to them for being here for me for the whole the time letting me remind some of my memories even though it is a hard work for them.

I look on the window again as I smile. The party was so happy and it would be a party that I will never forget about no matter what will happen that party will stay on my heart until I die in this world. The friendship that they give me was astonishing that no one could give it to me. I know I don’t remember that scene on the picture but I know there would be a perfect time.

   

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Chapter 3

Save me

It was summer and Kuro-sempai invited me to a trip for 2 weeks and he said that he will invite his friends too. I didn’t expect that his friends would be Riri, Jane and Luka. I was shocked that they were there. Jane hug me when I got on the station, Luka was jealous and he wants to hug Jane but he can’t so he hug Riri. Luka act like a gay sometimes because he is addict on some girls group which is very popular here in this region. Inside on the train Luka play his favorite song and he cry and look at the window and after 5 minutes his head got wind up and got dizzy.

I was laughing silently at Luka and Jane saw heard me laughing. Jane gives me a cute eye and she said “can you be my nee-chan?” I can’t decide on what to say so I just say “eh?” Kuro-senpai said that “come my cute girl let her call you big sister” I blushed right away and exclaimed “No~!” Jane gives mea a teary eye I can’t refuse her and at the end I said fine.

After we ride a train we arrive on a resort which is owned by Riri’s family. When we got there Riri bring us to the room that we are going to stay. Riri told us his life and his family. Riri was born on a rich family but even though he is rich he intend to live his life own of his own to prove his father that he doesn’t need to get engage on a girl whom he hasn’t meet yet.

I understand Riri’s situation and for rich family it has been normal for the son and daughters of a rich man to get engage at a young age just because of this tradition. Riri told us that he can stay on his father’s side but he will never get any cent from his father if he won’t marry the girl that his dad wants him to marry with.

I hug Riri suddenly without knowing, my head was empty and Jane together with Kuro-senpai and Luka tease us. I said to cut it off but they won’t they weren’t listening I said to them “just ignore me” and I walk away and go to the sea.

I didn’t realize that I was walking far away from the resort house. I look again on the sky once again and at that time I feel so lonely. At that time I want to die but I still want to see Ryou-kun just for the last time. It’s been 5 hours since that I walk away from the resort house, Riri and the others were looking for me I heard Jane’s voice “Yuki-nee-chan! I am so sorry for not listening I so sorry please come back….Yuki-nee!”

I feel something different about what Jane just said I want to let myself be seen by her but at the beach I saw a boy that have same hair as Ryou-kun and that boy was swimming. I want to swim just to see that boy if it was really Ryou-kun. When I step the on the water at the beach I feel so afraid but my determination push me. I swim and I forgot to do exercise before going on swimming. My arms got tired and then I got sprain. I can’t swim through that boy.

Jane saw me drowning and no one was there to save me. Jane run to the water and swim to save me but she’s too far from me. And the boy that I saw save me but I didn’t get a chance to see his face because I got unconscious. I woke up on a room and Jane was there and also Riri, Luka, and Kuro-senpai. Jane cries at me and she said sorry to me and also to the others.

I ask Jane if where was the boy who saves me and she said “he is not here, he just leave when Luka and the others just got here”. I feel so sad when she said that and I could not stop my self to cover with blanket just to hide my tears.

It was night everyone was asleep I went outside of the resort house and went to go to the beach. The moon was so beautiful and I can’t stop gazing at it together with the shining stars. I don’t know why I really want to see Ryou-kun eagerly and all I think of him was all positive I never think that we will never see each other.

Luka came near to me and sits beside me on the shore and ask “Yuki why does love hurts so much”. I can’t answer him so I said “I don’t know” Luka close his eyes and a tear just fall from him. He is very hurt on the person he loves, and it is not Jane but the one he love since his childhood. He told me about his love story and it was so touching but at the end Luka said the girl died and when he said it he hugs me while he cries.

Luka is a good person he may cry without reason but this time he cried with reason that would really make me cry. I don’t want to cry in front of him but instead I cry I comfort him for he needs me the most as his friend.

The sun has rise and everyone was ready for swimming. I want to swim but people aren’t allowed to swim if the person is not on swimsuit at that resort. I was so embarrassed to go out wearing a swimsuit so what I do was just nothing I just sit and watch them from above on the resort house.

I want to swim but it seems that I am afraid to touch the ocean water again. I look at the sky again and the sky was so wide and seems like I want to fly. Riri run on me and ask me to swim with him but I ignore him. Every time I am with Riri I feel uneasy because he treats me like a princess and I don’t want to be treated like that.

It was already lunch time and we ate together, Riri offered me a sit but I just walk through and sit on another chair. I feel bad for ignoring him but if I accept his offer my heart beat so fast and I would not be as myself.

For the past few days Riri keep following me but I keep ignoring him and running away. My feeling was so different I don’t know if it was called crush but I just ignore it. One day we went to a cave just to explore I got lost inside of that cave and the one who look for me so hard was Riri.

I want to walk but it seems I can’t because I got stumbled and just got a wound. I try to get up but every step I make my wound just hurt so much. The batteries of my flashlight just run off. I feel so hopeless but when I heard Riri’s voice I feel that there is still a hope that I can still see the sky and also see Ryou-kun.

I called Riri’s name but as I look the way I feel dizzy and all of my strength are gone my feet was full of blood and my wound is so big it won’t stop bleeding. Riri saw me lying on the ground unconscious. He carries me and he brought me on the hospital.

I woke up on the hospital at midnight and I just saw Riri holding my hand. I feel so bad at myself for ignoring him all the time. I know that we know each other for months but I never open up on him. He always talks about his experience on life. I want to be real but I don’t want to talk about my life because my life was never been good because the people that I care the most just walk away from me and it didn’t happen on me for once but five times.

When I got out of the hospital nothing has change I still keep ignoring him. When we were on the resort I was looking for food to have a snack but then when I ate the strawberry ice cream Riri saw me. I want to run but my wound wasn’t still healed. I walk and he stops me by holding my hand with force then I just fell on the floor.

He said “sorry…… I’ll help you” but then I got mad and just shove him and try to get up and I try to walk ever though I got hurt. I want to say sorry but still my heart beats so fast whenever he touches me. I want to say sorry to him and say thanks for saving me on the cave but for the whole week I never did. I only got one week left to be on the resort before we go home and if we will go home there might be no chance for me to say sorry because we don’t live near and there’s only Saturday and Sunday for me to get a chance to see him.

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Chapter 2

Time to say good bye

One month has passed me and Mr. Kishi which I call Ryou-chan now became a real friends. We always get teases that were not best friends but a couple. Ryou-chan and I talk about our life. Now I know many things about him and his family. He told me that his father died when he was 7 and her mom starts working so hard just for him and her cute big sister Kishi Lea. His sister is so cute and I even said to him if I was a boy I would marry his sister. Ryou-chan pouted at it he said that he doesn’t want me to marry his sister he wants that he will get marry first before his sister. I laugh at him and he jump at me to attack but instead that we are going to fight, well fall on the ground and he was so close on me. I can even feel his breathing at that time our world stop and seems like our anger pass away. Ryou-chan gets up and said sorry, he turn away and he blushed. I didn’t realize that Ryou-chan never get close at that range on a girl. It was his first time seeing a face of a girl very close.

 A week had passed and I told Henna that Ryou-chan likes her. Henna blushed and got sad. She told me that by 2 weeks she will transfer on another school. It was shocking for me because we’ve been close since child and then she will just leave me. I decided not to say it to Rou-chan because I want Henna to say it to Henna. Both of them are close but I and Ryou-chan are closer.

Henna told Ryou-chan that she will transfer on another school. Ryou-chan got sad and he said be careful as he pushes himself to smile. Henna kisses Ryou-chan on his forehead. Ryou-chan blushed and he couldn’t talk he was happy but at the same time he is embarrassed. Henna smiled at him and said “ Ryou-kun please take care of my Yuki please don’t leave her. I know that now she is crying. Well it’s not usual for her to cry but when it comes to a friend she will really suffer if her friend would leave her. So Ryou-kun please doesn’t make her cry and worry. Now I am not worthy as her best friend because I leave her but even though I love my best friend so can you take care of her?.” Henna cried as she smiled at Ryou-kun. Ryou-kun promised at Henna that he will never leave Yuki as long as he lives.

Few weeks has passed Henna transferred without saying goodbye at me. I was so sad and Ryou-kun wasn’t there for me he said that he will be back when he finish his exams. Ryou-kun promised me that he will be there for me but he never did. Every night I cried and every night I am sad and wishing every moment that I would forget everything. Ryou-kun has finished all of his exams and he became the top 1. Instead of praising him I would even ignore him. He tried to make me happy but I still can’t smile. Ryou-kun got fired up and he said if I won’t smile he will kiss me. I said to him “can you even try to do it?” Ryou-chan blushed and he said “no” he look so down and he said that he give up.

I feel so awkward making my little brother sad. I hug him and say sorry to him. He hugs me back and he said the next time I won’t smile he will really kisses me. I smiled and told him that he should never give his first kiss to me but only to the person he loves. Ryou-chan smiled at me and told me “your one of it”. I blushed and didn’t say anything. My heart feels different and it beats so fast. Ryou-chan touches my chest and he feels my heart beat. He smiled so widely and and said “nee-chan your heart is beating so fast like a horse”. I got mad at him and told him I am not a horse. He ran away and shouted “I love you nee-chan~!”

My face turns so red because people around the park heard Ryou-chan shouting I love you to me. I smile to him and I feel so happy that I couldn’t explain but the love I give him is like a love for a family. I want to feel Ryou-chan that he is part of my life part of my family and part of my love one.

Months has passed Ryou-chan become a freshmen and I became a junior high. Things have been so busy I don’t even have a time for him but I always give him many messages. He replies to me every two days and as time passes he reply to me once a week. And 1 month has passed there is no replies on my messages.

I was so sad when he didn’t reply on me. I was walking on the street thinking of him and I can’t even stop thinking of him. I look up on the sky again and wonder, I got bump into a boy and his things was scattered on the path. I said sorry to him and help him pick the papers. When I pick the papers all of it was a drawing of an anime. I was so amaze on his drawings. I was holding his drawing and I ask “is this your work?” he said “yes” and I was so happy I told him that I want to learn on drawing.

He said that he didn’t have anytime for me to teach. I was so sad and I said to him ok as I walk away unhappily. I was walking on the way and I remember the novel that I wrote that I was going to show to Madoka Kuro my sempai. He is the one who always read my story and he is the first one who always teases me about Ryou-chan.

I went back to my house and print the novel from the computer. When I finish it I went to Kuro-senpai’s house. The door was open so I open it immediately but when the door was open the first person I saw was the boy that bumps at me earlier. I point my finger at him and said “Y-y...you~!” as I exclaimed. “Oh Yuki-chan my favorite you’re here” Kuro-senpai said as he smile while he offers a tea on the boy.

Kuro-sempai asks me how did we meet and I told him everything. He said that everything was meant to be but I didn’t agree to him. I ask on the boy why does he is here. He told me that “Kuro-sempai is also my sempai and he is the one who reads the manga that I made.

I took his manga and he was embarrassed and his face turns red. It was interesting and I even want to read more. I smiled at him and say that it needs more improvement on the story. He got mad at me and he said why don’t I make my own manga and see how hard it is.

I told him that I tried to make one manga and it was famous but I didn’t put my name in there but only my pen name. He ask me how many chapters does it has I said that it only have 12 chapters. He said it was lame for me to make a manga having just 12 chapters. I was so mad and I even shout at him “you stupid man I hate you”. I couldn’t stop myself on being mad.

Kuro-senpai told the boy that I only need a friend at this time. Kuro-senpai knows my situation he knows that I am weak when it come to friends. The boy told Kuro-sempai that he will be the one who will make me happy. Kuro-senpai was amazed and he was teasing that boy both of them are so cute to look at.

I was walking away from the house of Kuro-sempai and then again I look at the sky. The clouds form into the faces of Henna and Ryou-kun. My heart was crumpling just like a paper that’s being crump. I close my eyes for a while and said to myself I should forget them and start over on my life.  After I said that to myself I feel happy and then I open my eyes and the boy that was on Kuro-senpai’s house was on my front.

He introduces his self and said “I am Takasu Riri I am here for you to make you happy”.  I was shocked on him and say “what?” my heart beat so fast and I would even want to run but he hold my hand and kiss it. I shove him and said “back off you idiot”. I didn’t know what to say to him I was so nervous and then he just write something on a paper and give it to me. He gives me that piece of paper and I ask him what it was and he said that it is his number. I get his number and run away.

At that night I can’t forget him and I don’t know what I feel both anger and happiness were mixed. I can’t sleep I keep rolling on my bed and I still can’t go to sleep. I stood and took my pencil. I try to picture him out and sketch him. Every stroke I made on my drawing I feel so happy and every erasure I made I feel sadness within.

I already finish the sketch and it picture out that he smiling while he kisses my hand. After I did that I feel much happier than ever and I even want to be befriended with him. I text at his number and I said sorry to him. After that I sleep and I even dream that I was happy on that dreaming and I was wishing that this night would never end.

The next day I went to my school and Riri texted me he said that he want me to meet someone. I wasn’t so interested but after my school has end I went to the meeting place. When I got there I saw a beautiful girl that caught my attention. Riri introduce that girl on me and her name was Sukima Jane. Both of us talk together and I was so happy to meet her.

Starting that I meet Riri my life has become so happy together with him and also with Jane. I even meet a new friend who has a crush on Jane and his name is Sakamo Luka. Being together with them is a never ending happiness but I knowing that happiness will have an exchange in the future and that is what I am afraid of.

Look!

Chapter 1

Look at her blushing

Look, I didn’t want to be an idiotic girl. If you only knew what did I do at that time. It all starts at February the month of hearts few years ago. I was just walking on the streets and look into the sky. My head was empty that time and I never knew that I end up walking on a shrine. Well because I am already there I didn’t waste my time so I decided to see the wishing big tree. As I walk towards that tree a winds blow on my side and I felt so cold. When I hold the tree I wished that I will feel how to be in loved and the wind blows again. I heard a sneeze on the other side of the tree. When I look on the other side of the tree I saw a boy sleeping laying his back on that tree. As I saw him my world stops and seems like I saw an angel and I couldn’t even stop staring at him. When he sneezes again I put my big jacket on him. I stand up and smiled as I walk away from that tree. I didn’t realize that he stood up and look at me as I walk away. I forgot that my wallet was on that jacket but I didn’t bother on it because that pocket was only cheap. The only thing that is on my wallet is my e-mail address, number and $20.

Few days have passed and my classmates were talking about love, but all I do was to change the topic. I was always been anti love because of my family experience about it. My cousin was on mental hospital for 6 years, my auntie tried homicide, and the worst my brother kill his lover and he got jailed, because of what happen to them I started to be afraid of being in love but somehow I wanted to feel love. Henna my classmate ask me if I have been falling in love with someone. I look at the window to see the sky and all I think was that boy. I stop thinking of him and look at to henna and I directly said no. Henna was somewhat disappointed and brag about the boy that he saw this morning which is her new crush. Henna wanted to know his name but she didn’t catch up with that boy because he walks so fast. I didn’t listen to what she says so only my other classmates heard on what she’s been saying.

The class has end and my classmate were inviting me to go on a karaoke. I tried not to be with them but I got no choice because they started to pull me. I end up sitting on the corner listening at them singing so hard, my eardrums was starting to break and seems like world was going to end. Henna stops my classmate Joana from singing and said to them that they shouldn’t shout when they are singing. Henna selects a song and sang. It was my first time seeing her singing so nice, I know that she is a backup singer of an idol but I never heard her singing in front of me. I said to myself that someday this girl would become famous and many boys would adore her.

Henna and I went home together. She told me that I should open my heart to everyone and allow them to feel how you feel for them. She runs on their gate and smiled at me. I look on the dark sky again and hoping that I will not be afraid of opening my door for everyone.

At the next day henna give me phone call and said that she wanted to see the new movie season of the “this boy I love is a cat”. I also wanted to see that new season so I accepted her offer and take a shower immediately. When I got there I saw henna waiting for me. Henna was mad at me because of my clothes. I usually wear punk clothes somewhat like a boy look like. She told me that I should never wear this kind of clothes because I am a girl.

When we got in on the cinema Henna was excited. I was so nervous on who is around us because I was embarrassed most of the people there were younger than us. As the movie goes on I feel so happy that the protagonist said I love you the boy which is cat in an original form. Most of the people cried and even Henna. I heard a sneeze which is so familiar for me and when I look at the boy who’s sitting beside me I saw my jacket and the boy was wearing it. I look at the big screen and thinks that he can’t be the boy that I saw before. The movie has ended I said to Henna that we need to get out of that place fast. I didn’t know what I was thinking; the only thing I know was that I should never go to that place. A boy called my name and Henna stopped me and she said that someone is calling me. The boy said my name once again.

“Your Misami Yuki right?” he walks in front of us as he smiled. My head was empty so Henna asks his name.  He said “I am Kishi Ryou nice to meet you” as he give his hand to shake. He also said thanks for lending the jacket on him but he won’t give it back because he said that he has dirtied it so he said that he will buy new one for me. Henna was excited to go shopping and as for me I didn’t have any other choice. We were on a girls store and everything there was so nice but I don’t want to wear a tight jacket but still they bought a jacket for me. Mr. Kishi wants to go on a stall where all boys clothes are in he bought something important well that’s what he told us.

When we were eating on a café Mr. Kishi gave me the thing that he bought lately. He said I will just open it when I am already on my own home. Henna and Mr. Kishi get close together and now they don’t call themselves by their last name and they call their names. Mr. Kishi calls me by my name but we are not that very close. I usually call him Mr. Kishi but he doesn’t want it, he wants me to call him Ryou-nya. I blushed when he says that and I turn away.

When it was already dawn we decided to go home but Mr. Kishi wants to spend more time with us. Henna said that why don’t we communicate each other on our cell phones. Mr. Kishi was so happy and he said that the next time that they will see each other they will talk about life. Henna got Mr. Kishi’s number.

“Ok it’s time to go Henna” I said while she was texting. “Noooo” Mr. Kishi exclaimed as he runs on my front and gives me an eye catching look that would melt your heart. I ask him “why?” and he said he hasn’t got my phone number yet. I said to him that we are not close but he really insists to get my number.

Henna gives to Mr. Kishi my number, and I was so dumb because I even run away and hide on a bush just so that my number won’t be exposed on him. At the end they saw me and Henna said said bye to Mr. Kishi for now. I and Henna was together going home again and she even says that he already like Mr. Kishi. She was jumping on the road happily and I couldn’t even stop her. Henna stop on jumping and turn on me and ask me seriously “Do you like Ryou-kun?” I was shocked on her asking me that kind of question. I didn’t say anything at all and Henna just turns away and said “I guess you like Ryou-kun Yuki-san”. When the moment she says that I stop and think about my family and then he pop out on my head. I said to myself “how did I like him? Just when did I like him?”

I got home at the time of 6:30 pm. I receive a message from an unknown messenger. I read the message and read it. “Yuki-nee-chan hello this is ryou-nya, how are you today was a good day and yeah I decided to call you my big sister because you’re older than me for one year so it is no problem right? Anyway nee-chan I will wait for you tomorrow on that big tree when the first time you saw me. And yeah wear the jacket I gave you that I bought from the boy’s clothes. Bye nya~!”

My world crack and I was so irritated. I forgot that Henna gave my Number to Mr. Kishi. I call on Henna immediately and said her everything Mr. Kishi’s message. Henna laugh at me and tease me. She teases me that I like him. I told her to stop but she won’t so I hang up the phone. I sit on my bed and saw the paper bag that Mr. Kishi gave. I open it and the jacket was in. I stretch my arms while holding to see what kind of design it has. The design looks very cool and it was my type. I send a thank you message on Mr. Kishi.

I was going to sleep but the cell phone light up which indicates that I have a message. I grab the phone and read my message. When I read the message I was shocked. Mr. Kishi said that he likes Henna a lot and he ask me what the things that she likes the most. I said to him all what Henna likes and dislikes. When it was already ten o’clock I told him that I will be going to sleep. He sends me a message that says “nee-chan thank you for all of it I love you nee-chan sweet dreams”. I blush right away and cover my body with blanket. I send him a message that says “idiot” and after that I tried to sleep but seems like I can’t sleep so much. The word I love you echoes on my head and I can’t sleep because of that. I slap my face and said I want to sleep than falling in love. Two hours has passed and I didn’t recognize that I was already asleep. 

sleep

uhmm I did nothing just sleep for the whole afternoon I feel I want to sleep more

ma speech

Our Mentors, the Youth, the Hope of the Generation to Come. I stand before you today as you can see fresh and young, an icon of youthfulness, no longer innocent nor ignorant. The media, TV, computers, DVDs, had laid down to us, a bulk of knowledge but not balance; sad to note more destructive rather than building; failing to contribute for the development of our whole being ; imparting ideas which leave me asking… is this okay? Is this real? Is this the truth? Which is which?

This lead me to conclude that young as I am confident as I am, the seeming “knowing it all generation” the youth, needs more of the guidance and direction from someone who truly knows what matters most in life. We need mentors who truly are concern of us, the youth, the hope of the generation to come. To our dear mentors… I often heard the responsibilities are difficult… Thank you for the efforts. Thank you for the patience. Thank you for the discipline. Thank you for the sacrifice.  Salute to you!!! For helping us become what we are meant to be.

To the youth, let us strive to do our part. Let us not be so much engrossed to computers but let us be educated as well with more important matters than pleasures; Let us also get concerned and interested in of our environment, our school, our country, our nation and above all, the Almighty, Our maker who can make all things possible. Let us use wisely our time and get involve with activities that will mold us to what we are meant to be: The hope of the generation to come!

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oh thump song

Oh Thump

By L lena Mio aka Azel

Oh how cute is my love

My heart is beating like

Thump, thump, thump,

When I see your picture

When you send me messages

Seems like life is full of

Sunshine when I hear

You laughing

Oh that smile, that cool smile

All I feel is

Thump, thump, thump,

Wait I can’t stop this kind of feeling

Oh I cut my hair so low so that you

Can see my smile my very bright smile

Oh no Why does you feel

Thump, thump, thump, too!

Oh how cute is my love

My heart is beating like

Thump, thump, thump,

Eh? Really?! I can feel your heart

Is beating but why you won’t say it

To me, oh Thump, thump, thump,

I feel your heart saying thump, thump, thump.

Oh no I’m turning 15 wait!

You call me on my birthday

And sing a birthday song

Oh how sweet of you

 I want to hug and kiss you but

If I do that my heart goes crazy like

Thump, thump, thump,

Oh stop I don’t want to be

Crazy so I will just keep this feeling

and lets just be friends

for a while were still young

we got so many days to have fun and we can still

feel the thrill on our adventure

Oh how cute is my love

My heart is beating like

Thump, thump, thump,(2x)

song

well today we were having our  a Capella we sang at the beginning well at first I was so bored because it wasn't sang well. the next group was a little confusing it wakes me feel dizzy hehehe. the 3 group sang only hope it was nice and when my classmate sang a high note she didn't cope up with that pitch and we laugh.... and at last my group we perform well and it was nice they said that my voice was cute like a kid when I sing and it makes me laugh am I a kid??? hehehe and the last group sang bad romance it was so funny because there action was soo annoying but somehow funny which will kill my stomach  

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